To everything, there is a season

You know how when you try out for a sports team, the coaches post the roster and there's always some loser who doesn't make the team?

You know how when you audition for the school play and the drama teacher posts the cast list and there's always some poor sap that missed out on the leading role?

Do you know what it feels like to be that person whose heart is full of anxiety, stomach full of butterflies, and head dizzy with excitement only to be let down when their name IS NOT on the stupid list??!!

Well that's ME in a nutshell. A rotten, misshapen nutshell.

So work has been sucking big time lately. Seems like the toilet bowel economy has finally hit the veterinary business and our revenue has gone WAY down. As a result, people have been getting sent home early, called off entirely, AND been laid off!! Oh and by people, I mean ME. The service that's been hardest hit is Internal Medicine--my department--so me and a few others have really been getting the shaft. I've been there for 4 years, but there are a few peeps in the department that have been there for 7 or 8 years and therefore don't have to kiss as much ass to get what they want. And so today, after much deliberation by the hospital owners and the dumbasses they have as staff supervisors, a new schedule was put into effect. About half of the staff had their hours cut by 10%, the other half wasn't affected at all, and about 5% of the staff got their schedules completely changed. Guess where I fall in??? I went from working Mon-Thurs 9a-7:30p with Internal Medicine and Charge Capture to working the following shiteous schedule:

Monday: 4p-12:30a in ICU
Wednesday: 9a-7:30p as a Float Technician
Thursday: 4p-12:30a in ICU
Friday: 12p-10:30p as a Float Technician

ARE YOU KIDDING ME???????????????
THIS IS HOW I'M REWARDED FOR 4 YEARS OF LOYAL SERVICE??????????????

I'm beyond upset. I'm not a big fan of ICU, and do you know why? Because most of the patients don't make it out of the ICU and any of them could drop dead as soon as you turn your back! Its one of the most stressful positions and one that requires a lot of skill. And being a float technician is super annoying because you are at the supervisors' beck and call and are made to pick up everyone's slack. AND I HATE NOT HAVING MY DAYS OFF IN A ROW!! Its so annoying! I have had 3 days off in a row for the past 4 years and no I'm NOT being a diva. Having a day off right in the middle of the week just doesn't flow. I'm gonna be so stressed out.

As if the constant stress of work isn't enough, guess what? I'm going back to school! I know I've been going to Mesa College for the past 2 years but I'm finally going back to UCSD where I can get my bachelor's degree in biology!!! I'm sure you remember my nervous breakdown when I flunked out of UCSD in 2004, but rest assured I am a changed person. I'm back baby!! I start the Spring Quarter on Monday, and I'm a little ticked off because if I had known my horrible new schedule earlier, I could have taken one more class and qualified for financial aid. I am only taking one class because that's all I could fit in my schedule (Biology 1: Mon, Wed from 7:30a-8:50a) and all I could afford. Hopefully when Fall Quarter comes around I can take a few more classes and qualify for some financial help.

To everything (turn, turn, turn) there is a season (turn, turn, turn). I'm gonna be bitter for awhile, but I'll inevitably pull myself out of this rut and move on with life.